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A week later…

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I know life in this household won’t ever be the same again.

I pray that I have the strength and patience to support through this time of grief and pain, and to wait until thing get back as close to normal as it’s going to get. (Remember my lack of patience?)

I believe (I have to…) that the way life will be different, will be something we can all live with.

We are still in the first stage of grief, with a few more to come. The clever people say anger is the next stage…

God give me strength, and wisdom, to say and do the right things at the right time. Amen.

R.I.P

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Just a quick few words to explain my absence over the last week or so.

My SO’s eldest son passed away on Sunday after a week in hospital, at the age of 18.

You can imagine the turmoil in the house at the moment. The hurt, the pain, the people calling and wanting to stop by, etc. It’s been a very difficult time, most of all for this man of mine, as he was the sole provider to this boy in all senses – emotionally and physically. Christiaan’s passing is going to leave a huge hole in Bernd’s life, and this is going to take a very, very long time to come to terms with, if ever.

I sort of feel the need to try and explain this boy’s life to you guys, but I don’t think words would be able to do it. He was a troubled boy, a difficult young man to cope with – always against the stream, against authority, against discipline, sometimes it seemed, against life. But because of this, Bernd needed to be there 24/7 for this child. And he was. Always. He needed to coax, and prod, and plead, and cajole, and shout. Mostly to no avail, but he would never, ever have stopped trying. Now he’s gone, and it is something indescribable. I do believe he is at peace at last, as I’ve had the feeling for some time now that he is not for this world.

So, excuse me if I’m scarce, I’ll be back more regularly soon. Tomorrow is the memorial service, and after that, we can try and put life together again, as best we can.

The Cow post

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Cattle. Cows. Calves.

Oh, and creche!

I love the alliteration there! πŸ™‚ Bulls have no place in this specific post – Adam will have a chance next time.

I’m tempted to say: ‘Halleluya!’, because another beautiful calf was born yesterday morning, which brings the current total to eleven!!! Five heifers, and six bull babies. And a few more to come. I am smiling broadly at the moment. I do realize that something will go wrong again somewhere down the line, but I’m thoroughly enjoying our blessings and good fortune for now.

(I’m disappointed – I was going to post just a short video of the babies, but I can’t unless I buy space?!!!! ) So, not as cute but some pictures of the babes…

The Creche – Six of the babies relaxing with moms.

Babies a couple of weeks ago.

 

 

Yesterday we had to move our cattle to another camp, as they’ve munched off all the grass in the old camp. It was so funny to watch! They jogged through the gate, saw the green, green grass on the other side and dived in! Then after a few minutes, they realized it’s a whole camp of Β new, green grass and they started skipping and jumping and chasing each other around. It was so cool to watch! πŸ™‚

This cow was sick a short while ago, and when she saw the juicy grass, she stuck her head in it, and hardly came up for air! I had to laugh at the way she was just about ‘mowing’ the grass!!! I managed to draw her attention enough for her to lift her head so I could take a picture.

Ooooooh YUM!!!! πŸ™‚

 

πŸ™‚ Β Nearly weekend, friends, hope you’ve got wonderful plans for it!!!! Β πŸ™‚

 

 

 

 

 

Color Crazy

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I don’t know why this is, but I feel compelled to post this picture.

It is one of those ‘nothing’ pictures. Really, just a picture I took because …I don’t know why. I had breakfast with my daughter and a few of her friends in this very charming place called Isabella’s. Both Xan and I loved the decor – a cross between French and funky, modern and vintage. And at one point, after I finished eating, I looked down … and had to take the picture! And now I have to post it. It just won’t go away… πŸ™‚

It is weird, because the colors are just crazy! They don’t match, but somehow, in the big picture of the place, it works.

Crazy colors.

 

I’m feeling a bit schizophrenic at the moment, with all the excitement of the wedding (their excitement, my sadness and excitement), the wonderful expectation of the upcoming holiday in Europe, the torn and sad feeling of knowing my daughter is leaving, etc. And I’ve said all of this before, and I probably will a few times more. Please excuse my rambling on the subject, and my continuous mulling over of the same stuff – I’ll get over it eventually, I promise!!! And I am happy and excited for the young couple too, even if it doesn’t sound that way! πŸ™‚

Double O status…

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It is the end of another week.

My goodness, but time is flying! I cannot believe that this year is already nearing its end. I’m not crazy about how this last couple of months have flown past, but there’s no stopping it, is there? And always the torn feelings – glad that our trip to Europe is coming up soon, but definitely not glad that the end of December is rushing up and that means saying goodbye…

But, at the moment I’m working ‘undercover’ as I’m busy with a very special project… Β πŸ˜‰ Β I’ll give you some clues…

 

Some special shiny stuff… πŸ™‚

 

 

Have a wonderful week, friends!!!! πŸ™‚

Purple Rain

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I spent nearly a week with my daughter, and what a wonderful week it was!!!! πŸ™‚

We were busy. She still had to work, but I had a lot to do as well, so the first three days were spent running my own errands, some of hers (ours, actually, as it was for the Big Day!), and spending evenings with her. And then we had the weekend!!! We accomplished SO much, and made beautiful memories along the way. It was a special time.

The first day I was there, she took us ‘picture hunting’. More specifically, she wanted to photograph the Jacaranda trees in Pretoria. Let me explain a bit more. Pretoria is known in South Africa as the Jacaranda City, because of the countless trees lining the streets of the city. It is not an indigenous tree, but it is oh, so very beautiful. It flowers around this time of the year, and it is a spectacular sight!

I know she took a some gorgeous pictures and I don’t want to spoil it for her, but I know we look at things from different angles, Β so I cannot resist posting one of my pictures.

Glorious Jacaranda flowers.

Can you imagine streets full of huge trees covered in these flowers?

PS Because of my week away, I couldn’t quite manage to stay on top of the new postings, so forgive me if I don’t get around to you.

Patience…and precious time

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Today I’m doing something completely different!!

I read Terry’s blog just now, and I found the concept of the daily prompt quite interesting, so I decided to join in. The ‘rules’ are as follows:

Pick a random word and do Google image search on it. Check out the eleventh picture it brings up. Write about whatever that image brings to mind.

(http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2012/10/30/daily-prompt-5/)

And since Terry already used my first choice for a word, I went with one that I am seriously lacking – PATIENCE!!!! And this is picture no.11:

 

 

Right.

We all know that ‘patience is a virtue’ – no surprises there. I know it too…I’ve heard it often enough from people witnessing my absolute lack of said virtue. πŸ™‚

What thoughts and emotions does this picture bring up?

Well, to start off with, I like the lack of ‘stuff’ and distractions in the picture. I wish that every time I lose my patience, I have as little stimuli around me – that will definitely help calm me down. But life is not like that. We are surrounded by people, and motor cars, and noise, and other things, which normally aggravates the situation.

I also know for a fact that this picture is misleading. I can look like that cat. I can sit or stand very still and look like I’m waiting patiently, but inside everything is churning and bubbling away… The muscles and nerves are all bunched up and ready to pounce!

I’ve tried. I really have tried to be more patient, but I’m sorry to say, I don’t think I’ve made any headway. So my loved ones will just have to use me up the way I am! πŸ™‚

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Like I mentioned in my previous post, I’m spending some precious time with my one and only daughter to do some very important stuff for the wedding. I am loving the time with her, and I’m packing away memories like crazy, to help me through tough times to come…

My special girl, having lunch last week after we bought the sexy sandals for the big day. πŸ™‚