OK, so D-day has come and gone…
And nothing came crashing down around my head! My paid subscription ended 7 days ago, and on the surface nothing seems to have changed. Yay!
Things have definitely changed around here, weather-wise. Mornings are still cool, but the days are already a lot warmer than say, a week ago. Nothing one can do anything about – the seasons will come and they will go, and we have to roll with it.
A lot like the seasons of life. I don’t want to spoil anyone’s day, but if you are of a younger generation, you will get old(er). You are getting older as we speak. As am I. Ugh… 😦
It is my mom’s birthday today, she is 86 years old. And although she is healthy and in good physical nick for her age, her age does show itself daily. In the things she says, how she says it and things she does and doesn’t do. It is strange experiencing one’s mom that way, as it is so different to the mom you grew up with.
She says things totally out of context. She makes herself a sandwich and leaves everything where and how she used it. She leaves crumbs all over. She makes ‘jokes’ that only she finds funny. She voices her opinion about personal stuff (mine!) that really has nothing to do with her.
And I have very little patience. I never had a lot. But I’m doing my best to be kind and more patient. Because “Honor thy father and thy mother…”, like the Bible says.
And because – I am at an age now where a few years ago I thought people were OLD. And if I am spared, I will in years to come be the age my mom is now. And I would love it if my kids would treat me with love and respect as well, and even if they secretly laugh at the things I say (which I’m sure they already sometimes do….) just be kind to me.
It is tough getting older. At first your mind cannot get around the fact that you’re not thirty anymore, because you feel thirty. Until suddenly you are sixty and you realize there are things your body won’t do anymore. And the mirror reflects the truth every single day, so you cannot hide from it anymore.
And I see the frustration in my mom, because she’s been relatively active all her life. She still walks at least 2 km’s everyday – not shuffling or strolling, she walks! But she is getting more unsteady on her feet when climbing stairs, even if it is only two. She is very slow getting out of the car. She’s got pains and aches all the time. She can’t hear so well anymore. She tells me things that she’s already told me. She obviously also doesn’t feel her age, but she is 86 – no getting away from it. From here on in, I’m sure things are not going to get better.
So, more as a note to myself, but also to all of you out there – age creeps up on all of us – be kind to old people, they mostly can’t help being forgetful and slow, (Grumpy is something completely different!), and you will be there sooner than you think.